March and it feels like seasonal grid-lock
To the East each morning black birds flock
I know it could all just fade to white
For there was no answer in the night
Nor in the day when blue chases the gray
And these words have no clue, no sway
Other than the thought loud in my head
Maybe I should have just stayed in bed
Hoping the bear hibernates a while longer
Until we are much wiser and bit stronger
Early in the morning I hear the marsh
birds sing their lonely songs, with
repeating melodies, as if they have
no other purpose but to fill the world
with sound.
And I sit with wonder, and think
then write these lonely words, with
repeating rhythm on this page
with no purpose but to fill the world
with thought.
In a world in which fire is applied
to move the will of the people
to futilely change the arrow of time;
such heat as applied will be absorbed,
returned in an expanding system
which consumes everything on its way
toward further disorder, for entropy
will not be denied and heat moves
to cold, never the other way around.
And the source of fire will too burn
in an inexorable drive toward chaos.
A white picket fence on an azure sea
cutting the waves on a close haul.
Rounding tight,
jibing for a downhill run
raising colorful spinnakers.
A spectacle for those who care to see
Another race around a track
going nowhere but,
such as the winds allow.
Rounding tight for downhill runs
then floundering when the winds fail.
A spectacle for those who fail to see.
Some rather, wander aimless this sea
going everywhere as the waves allow,
never finding a downhill run
until rocky shores do avail
themselves of an end of sorts.
A spectacle no one should ever see.
If a breeze would just be pleasant
and not aspire to a hurricane.
If a rose would just blossom
without the bite of thorns.
If the sea would wave calm and cool
and not rage violent and incoherent.
Then we might never understand
just how dangerous beauty could be.
Just outside, a bald eagle
beautiful, makes a kill, a
large fish, too large to fly with.
This predator appears to me
as regal and beautiful, even
fearless… and yet the buzzards
who will feast on the remains
ensure I don’t have to clean
up the mess the eagle makes.
Does not the eagle then serve
the buzzards? Do they in turn
serve me, cleaning every scrap?
Irrationally, I see them as ugly
thieves and purveyors of doom.
Conditioned as I have been
to love one and not the other.
With melodies that are whisper thin
and lyrics obscure, as if another language
and rhythms of a distant place and time.
It came from somewhere,
and aimlessly going nowhere.
It soothes my soul, and yet
I wonder why it’s here?
Who sent it, or did I conjure
from a past lost in memory?
If I could find the lyrics, I imagine
a beautiful poem of a loss
that is great, and find that is more.
I know not this story,
I know not this song.
But I hear it in my heart,
I hear it in the wind,
it brings me hope,
it brings me peace.
All I need to do is listen
to the song in there.
Wandering the memory rooms
of this old house, cluttered with
this and that, and nothing I’m
looking for, because I know not
what I’m looking for.
A clock stuck, with nowhere to go.
A book open to a wordless page.
Clothes no longer in style, if they ever were.
Furniture no longer used, gathers dust,
hiding treasures between the cushions.
Briefcase that holds no work, nor future.
A window lets in a thin wind, that remembers
something about cold and ice, but shows
nothing of what’s outside, or what’s to come.
The clutter that will never be clear,
wrestles with, moves and reappears.
And a too small mattress, bows in the middle,
from a time when we didn’t seem to mind.